Relaxation after a bad day
Sitting here this evening with a big cup of hot chocolate, a piece of cheesecake, and an episode of Xfiles. All very needed to relax, "chill out" and wind down after a frustrating day. So what was so frustrating you ask?...
1. My computer, yes again! My desktop again started freezing up a few times a day a couple days ago. It has been doing so much better with me shutting it down every night, so I figured it was just overheating and getting over worked. Then now it's started it again, and even today it never even let me use it! I started it up and then went to do a couple things. When I went to sit down at the computer it was already frozen, so I restarted it and went to do something else again. Again when I returned it was already frozen again. After the 3rd time this happened today, I just turned the darn thing off and gave up on it.
2. Amazon! UGH..well, this part isn't all bad, hehe... I finally saved up enough to buy my flash for my camera so I set out today to order it. There was a rebate on it and if I signed up for the amazon credit card there was a $30 cash back. How could I resist saving $45 on the flash? So I went through the motions and signed up and was approved. Then I ordered my new flash and got my email receipt. As I looked over the receipt, I realized the shipping address was my TX address! ugh!! I had to cancel the order so I could redo it and have it shipped here. Seems simple enough huh. WELL...this turned into a freaking 2 hour ordeal. The delivery time for the free shipping was estimated to arrive after we would be leaving to go home for the holiday, so I figured ok I'll just have it shipped to my parents or just pay for the shipping for it to get here sooner. Well, to get the $30 credit from the credit card, I had to use that to purchase, but to be able to use it, I had to have it shipped to an address already in my amazon account when I signed up for the card or I'd have to wait for the physical card to come to have the number to enter for use. Well, I had hit edit on my current address to correct the phone number so it voided that for a shipping address, and my parents address wasn't listed. LOVELY. I did finally figure all this out and found my inlaws address in my account, so I had it finally sent to their address and if it's not there when we get there, Eric said we can always stay an extra few hours for to arrive or I can just get it I guess when we go back after visiting my parents. So..though this turned into a long ordeal...i did finally get my flash ordered. OH and..a new lens I wanted, also had a nice rebate on it, so I told dh it might be good to order it now. He said OK go ahead, he was planning to order it for me for Christmas anyway! yay!! So for christmas I get a flash and a new lens. :) I'm so excited!
3. OMG..Ky is sooo busy and into EVERYTHING. If she gets into one more drawer, moves the kitchen chairs to reach one more piece of candy or marker, draws on one more wall or piece of furniture..uuuuugggghhh. but then she knows just when to give a big hug, a kiss and a giggle to make my day! Darn cutie. :)
4. Alyssa :( My good girl is having some real trouble at school. Academically she's doing fantastically, but behavior wise..things aren't going oh so well. :( Her teacher called us to discuss some of her concerns with Alyssa's attention. She suggested we might consider a medical check for ADD. ADD? Alyssa? This seems completely insane to me! If I have a child with ADD, it is KY! lol Alyssa has the most amazing attention span of any child I've ever known, and she's been that way since she was Ky's age. The teacher said she's not doing a good job focussing in class though, not doing well at staying on task, and is very unorganized. I know she acts a little scatter brained often, and can be very forgetful. I agree she's not very organized, but she is only 6 1/2! I'm just shocked. I have never ever thought of Alyssa with ADD. I honestly wonder if it's lack of interest, lack of challenge, maturity, or just tiredness. I know ADD is real, but I honestly believe teachers and parents jump to this and medication way too often these days because they just don't know what to do with these kids. I know it's hard, I was a school teacher, but I honestly think it's way over diagnosed these days. If my kid is academically not suffering any, she's not doing anything "naughty" or to be spiteful, she absolutely loves school and is extremely sociable, and aces everything with such little effort...could she just not be interested or challenged when you see her not on task? This would be my first guess, not ADD. I had a student with ADD when I was student teaching and he could not concentrate on anythng when his medication wore off..I have NEVER seen Alyssa have trouble concentrating when she's interested in something, and I've never really seen her behave like that little boy did. My mom did tell me I shouldn't rule it out so easily though without considering it. As she put it, I'd feel terrible if she did need help and I didn't seek it for her. I guess Eric and I will have to discuss this more. :( My poor Alyssa. She's the sweetest kid, has the biggest heart and is such a smartie..I hope I can help her pinpoint what's causing the behavior trouble, cuz she really is a good kid.
sooo...all of this today...it's just been a lot..I needed some "down" time to wind down before I could really try to work on the next things I need to do.
Oh and on top of the frustration, my hormones are sooo out of whack. I have been drawn to tears at least 3 times today! ugh. A couple years ago I was going through fertility treatment in an attempt to get prego (for Ky). During the treatment, they woudl do a folic study/ultrasound each month. They found cyst on my left ovary that they watched for a few months and then finally determined it warranted additional testing. They ran an ovarian cancer marker which came back high and referred me off to a GYN Oncologist immediately. I dropped out of school that semester and underwent surgery to have the cyst removed and tested. I had to have an actual incession, not just laproscopic surgery and they determined I had pretty bad endometriosis. The cyst was about the size of a softball and could not be separated from my ovary, so they had to take it out. After several more months, I finally got prego with Kyleigh and all went smoothly. After she was born the doctor gave me a progesterone pill to help slow the regrowth of the endometriosis and hopefully help balance my hormones (they diagnosed me with POS and a hormone imbalance when I was trying to get prego with Alyssa). So, all has been fairly ok until a few months ago. My last NORMAL cycle was the beginning of Sept. Since then I've had a TON of light spotting bleeding, but never a full period, and it goes on and on keeps coming back after only a week or two of stopping. At first I thought I might be prego and took like 3 tests in the period of about 2 weeks. All came back negative. I'm now beginning to think the endometriosis may be back. I know I really need to go to the doctor, but 1) it is an $80 copay on our insurance, 2) I don't know if I should just go to an OB/GYN, a fertility specialist or my primary doctor first, but I don't want to pay $80 just get a referrel to someone else, and really...I think I'm scared to find out it may be back. What if it's already so bad and I lose my other ovary or my uterus or something that will make it impossible for me to have any more children? I'm not ready to hear that, as Eric and I actually hoped to start trying for a 3rd kid sometime next year. :( I really need to find out what to do and do it..it's not getting better and it's just upsetting me more each day. sighhh
well..I think I need to log out and finish my show. have a good night everyone!
1. My computer, yes again! My desktop again started freezing up a few times a day a couple days ago. It has been doing so much better with me shutting it down every night, so I figured it was just overheating and getting over worked. Then now it's started it again, and even today it never even let me use it! I started it up and then went to do a couple things. When I went to sit down at the computer it was already frozen, so I restarted it and went to do something else again. Again when I returned it was already frozen again. After the 3rd time this happened today, I just turned the darn thing off and gave up on it.
2. Amazon! UGH..well, this part isn't all bad, hehe... I finally saved up enough to buy my flash for my camera so I set out today to order it. There was a rebate on it and if I signed up for the amazon credit card there was a $30 cash back. How could I resist saving $45 on the flash? So I went through the motions and signed up and was approved. Then I ordered my new flash and got my email receipt. As I looked over the receipt, I realized the shipping address was my TX address! ugh!! I had to cancel the order so I could redo it and have it shipped here. Seems simple enough huh. WELL...this turned into a freaking 2 hour ordeal. The delivery time for the free shipping was estimated to arrive after we would be leaving to go home for the holiday, so I figured ok I'll just have it shipped to my parents or just pay for the shipping for it to get here sooner. Well, to get the $30 credit from the credit card, I had to use that to purchase, but to be able to use it, I had to have it shipped to an address already in my amazon account when I signed up for the card or I'd have to wait for the physical card to come to have the number to enter for use. Well, I had hit edit on my current address to correct the phone number so it voided that for a shipping address, and my parents address wasn't listed. LOVELY. I did finally figure all this out and found my inlaws address in my account, so I had it finally sent to their address and if it's not there when we get there, Eric said we can always stay an extra few hours for to arrive or I can just get it I guess when we go back after visiting my parents. So..though this turned into a long ordeal...i did finally get my flash ordered. OH and..a new lens I wanted, also had a nice rebate on it, so I told dh it might be good to order it now. He said OK go ahead, he was planning to order it for me for Christmas anyway! yay!! So for christmas I get a flash and a new lens. :) I'm so excited!
3. OMG..Ky is sooo busy and into EVERYTHING. If she gets into one more drawer, moves the kitchen chairs to reach one more piece of candy or marker, draws on one more wall or piece of furniture..uuuuugggghhh. but then she knows just when to give a big hug, a kiss and a giggle to make my day! Darn cutie. :)
4. Alyssa :( My good girl is having some real trouble at school. Academically she's doing fantastically, but behavior wise..things aren't going oh so well. :( Her teacher called us to discuss some of her concerns with Alyssa's attention. She suggested we might consider a medical check for ADD. ADD? Alyssa? This seems completely insane to me! If I have a child with ADD, it is KY! lol Alyssa has the most amazing attention span of any child I've ever known, and she's been that way since she was Ky's age. The teacher said she's not doing a good job focussing in class though, not doing well at staying on task, and is very unorganized. I know she acts a little scatter brained often, and can be very forgetful. I agree she's not very organized, but she is only 6 1/2! I'm just shocked. I have never ever thought of Alyssa with ADD. I honestly wonder if it's lack of interest, lack of challenge, maturity, or just tiredness. I know ADD is real, but I honestly believe teachers and parents jump to this and medication way too often these days because they just don't know what to do with these kids. I know it's hard, I was a school teacher, but I honestly think it's way over diagnosed these days. If my kid is academically not suffering any, she's not doing anything "naughty" or to be spiteful, she absolutely loves school and is extremely sociable, and aces everything with such little effort...could she just not be interested or challenged when you see her not on task? This would be my first guess, not ADD. I had a student with ADD when I was student teaching and he could not concentrate on anythng when his medication wore off..I have NEVER seen Alyssa have trouble concentrating when she's interested in something, and I've never really seen her behave like that little boy did. My mom did tell me I shouldn't rule it out so easily though without considering it. As she put it, I'd feel terrible if she did need help and I didn't seek it for her. I guess Eric and I will have to discuss this more. :( My poor Alyssa. She's the sweetest kid, has the biggest heart and is such a smartie..I hope I can help her pinpoint what's causing the behavior trouble, cuz she really is a good kid.
sooo...all of this today...it's just been a lot..I needed some "down" time to wind down before I could really try to work on the next things I need to do.
Oh and on top of the frustration, my hormones are sooo out of whack. I have been drawn to tears at least 3 times today! ugh. A couple years ago I was going through fertility treatment in an attempt to get prego (for Ky). During the treatment, they woudl do a folic study/ultrasound each month. They found cyst on my left ovary that they watched for a few months and then finally determined it warranted additional testing. They ran an ovarian cancer marker which came back high and referred me off to a GYN Oncologist immediately. I dropped out of school that semester and underwent surgery to have the cyst removed and tested. I had to have an actual incession, not just laproscopic surgery and they determined I had pretty bad endometriosis. The cyst was about the size of a softball and could not be separated from my ovary, so they had to take it out. After several more months, I finally got prego with Kyleigh and all went smoothly. After she was born the doctor gave me a progesterone pill to help slow the regrowth of the endometriosis and hopefully help balance my hormones (they diagnosed me with POS and a hormone imbalance when I was trying to get prego with Alyssa). So, all has been fairly ok until a few months ago. My last NORMAL cycle was the beginning of Sept. Since then I've had a TON of light spotting bleeding, but never a full period, and it goes on and on keeps coming back after only a week or two of stopping. At first I thought I might be prego and took like 3 tests in the period of about 2 weeks. All came back negative. I'm now beginning to think the endometriosis may be back. I know I really need to go to the doctor, but 1) it is an $80 copay on our insurance, 2) I don't know if I should just go to an OB/GYN, a fertility specialist or my primary doctor first, but I don't want to pay $80 just get a referrel to someone else, and really...I think I'm scared to find out it may be back. What if it's already so bad and I lose my other ovary or my uterus or something that will make it impossible for me to have any more children? I'm not ready to hear that, as Eric and I actually hoped to start trying for a 3rd kid sometime next year. :( I really need to find out what to do and do it..it's not getting better and it's just upsetting me more each day. sighhh
well..I think I need to log out and finish my show. have a good night everyone!
posted by Sarah96 @ 10:30 PM
1 Comments:
At 12/07/2006 11:39 AM,
Anonymous said…
Wow. I found your Blog, surfing the 'net, checking out different Digi-Scrap sites and Blog. I normally don't comment on people's Blogs, but after reading this post, I had to drop you a line. I am going through the exact same thing in terms of the endo/fertility thing. I was diagnosed with endo as a teenager and was told that I would never have children. I got pregnant at 23 with my 1st son (now 9) and he was a wonderful "surprise"! Then 3 years later, my husband and I "tried" for our second and got pregnant immediately with our 2nd son. Since 2003, I have been trying to get pregnant. I found out 2 years ago that the endo had come back after the birth of my 2nd child, but it had been mis-diagnosed repeatedly as ovarian cysts. I had to have a laparoscopy, and when I came out of anesthesia, I found that I had to have my right ovary and tube removed due to a softball sized mass that they could not separate from the surrounding tissue. I was put on birth control pills following surgery, but they make me EXTREMELY hormonal, causing severe depression, so I stopped taking them. Now my symptoms have returned and I am afraid to go back to the OB/GYN. I didn't follow up as I should have last year (and I'm and RN and know better) but I am so afraid that she is going to tell me that I am never going to have another child that I would rather face the unknown. Sounds silly even typing it out, and irrational, but to someone who knows what I am going through, I know you understand. I am going to eventually have to face the music, sooner rather than later, and I'm sure you will as well. We know it's in our best interest, and in the best interest of any children that we may have. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and hope that everything is ok, and that you get the third child that you want. And don't listen to those people that are inevitably telling you, Just be happy you have 2 beautiful healthy children." Of course we're happy to have them. But that doesn't EVER lessen the desire to have another child. Peace, health and happiness to you and your family and Happy Holidays.
~Jessica
Basswife
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